Well its March and the snow has made its presence felt pretty much all over Ireland. I had totally new experience for the first time in my life I was alone facing a epic force of nature. I have recently moved to Athlone and am living in the country literally at edge of a bog. I was prepared with food, heat and electricity. All the things we take for granted. Even thought I was alone which I actually did not mind too much I was fearful of losing what I had and the greatest of these were electricity.These were not something that I could control but the fear that came up was real particularly as I faced into the worse of the storm. I charged my laptop, made sure my spare battery was charged . I did talk to myself and say what was the worst that could happen and even if it did happen would I survive. Of course I would survive I had a fantastic house that would keep me safe, cooked some extra food just in case.
Fear of the unknown, whats the worse that can happen. For anyone who is following their dream or destiny learn to trust that they are taken care of. When I got out of the fear of worse case scenario and I forgot the tools that were in my arsenal . I do believe in the power of intent, instead of concentrating on what is the worse that can happen you think about what you would like to happen instead and it worked. Gratitude for what you have, really powerful. The ability to get out , get fresh air between the snow showers was invigorating. So I concentrated on all the things I could do for myself including taking time to write even thought it was only in short bursts it was enough to start the creative juices.
So day 4 since the snow started and because I concentrated to all the things I am grateful for, still have heat food and electricity and even though some of the pipes froze I still have water coming into the house. The contact with my family and friends made a huge difference we do need human connection and I appreciated it so much ,my lovely neighbour who called yesterday with drinking water all helped the make the experience not the worst I have been through. I did discover I broke the experience into timeline which was at its peak at the worst of the storm and when I thought I was over the worst I could see the light at the end of the tunnel it uplifed my spirits.
I re acquainted myself with trust and knowledge that I have all the help and support I need. The time allowed me to deal with fear and overcome it . I do believe that no experience is wasted and this was one I needed to face on my own, there was no escaping it or the emotions that came up but they were my emotions and I knew that it was ok to acknowledge them.I also found that the grief that I had been putting a lid on for years also came up but that is for another time .Having time to yourself allows you to feel, there is no distraction from all emotions that you had buried because of busyness in surviving. For me it was ok for emotions to come up and be felt, there was no need to beat myself up just be gentle and do what I know worked when the time felt right.
We have everything we need within us and it will not steer us wrong! Hug of love to everyone.
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